Confused & Sad

HaI,tOdAy GoNnA bE A bOrInG dAy FoR mE bAh...
Two days ago,juz had a quarral with my mum..I rEalized tt i realli can't communicate with her & our relationship seem to be drifting apart..I rEalli wanna tell her everyting but it juz seems so difficult...Y mUz ShE always compare me with other ppl..I realli feel so irritated & sad whenever she scolded me..EvEr SinCe I sToPpeD MY pIaNo LeSsOns So tt i CaN cOnCeNtRaTe in My O levels tis yr,she juz felt tt my future is gone WiThOuT tAkInG MY gRadE 8 anymore..& sHe JuZ kEep FeELiNg tt i haf a bf juz bcoz i always came home late..Y cAn't ShE jUz UnDeRsTaNd WaD i WaNt..ShE kEeP sAyINg My FrEnZ NOW IS MORE impt to me but not her anymore..I uNdErStAnD AS parents,how she feel @ the moment when i juz can't tell her everyting but haf she ever how stressful i am due to many tings.....??????
As FoR FrEnZ,i also VeRi CoNfUsED & i JuZ sEeMeD sO cOnFUsEd & SeNsItIvE oVeR ceRtAin TiNgS BAH...i Juz DuN uNdErStAnD y I mUz AlWaYs Be THe OnE tO bE cHoOsE tO dO tInGs I dUn ReAlLi WaNT..jUz BcOz I aM oLdEr & If Tt's realli the case,ItS tOtALLY eXcUse LoR..iZzIt BcOz i EaSiLlY BULLIED OR JUZ bcoz i dunno how to voice out my unhappiness...???WaDeVeR tHey WAnT fRoM mE,Ask me To LeT eM sEE mY mSg Or AsK mE tO dO tInGs,i will never reject one coz i trust em!!!BuT y I wAnA kNOw ThEir SmAll like secrets,they juz can't do tt...WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?????To Me,EvErY sInGlE one of em is so impt in my life coz we're alreadi frenz for AlMoSt OvEr 4 YrS & many joyful & sad tings also happened..HaI,i dUN expect to be e same like i treat emm lor..oR i ASk FoR IS EQUALITY.....